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theendofmyrope   in reply to Anonymous40784   on

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I am trying to make ends meet. My electric will be turned off on Monday unless I make a payment of $558.61 to Duke Energy. I don't have it. No agencies are open to appeal to. They dropped of the notice of disconnect today at 4:30pm I have till 8am Monday 9/30/13.... HELP !!! I have 3 kids and no way to get this done
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theendofmyrope   in reply to Elaine of TSA   on

Elaine of TSA

I am trying to make ends meet. My electric will be turned off on Monday unless I make a payment of $558.61 to Duke Energy. I don't have it. No agencies are open to appeal to. They dropped of the notice of disconnect today at 4:30pm I have till 8am Monday 9/30/13.... HELP !!! I have 3 kids and no way to get this done
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electric shut-off: I am still trying to make ends meet. My electric will be turned off on Monday unless I

I am still trying to make ends meet. My electric will be turned off on Monday unless I make a payment of $558.61 to Duke Energy. I don't have it. No agencies are open to appeal to. They dropped of the notice of disconnect today at 4:30pm I have till 8am Monday 9/30/13.... HELP !!! I have 3 kids and no way to get this done
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theendofmyrope   in reply to theendofmyrope   on

Christmas Sucked, no heat, prayer answer = NO

 in response to Dav23...   I didnt know when the cut off day was, or who was offering services until too late. I tried to explain, but it fell on deaf ears. I was also hoping things would work out so that I would not have to ask for help. This is all new to me. What did I know... Nothing clearly.
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Christmas Sucked, no heat, prayer answer = NO

OK - Christmas was the worst ever... no joke. Salvation Army and other charities told me I applied too late, churches told me I had to join to receive any help, other organizations were out of money to assist with.

I hav enever had a Christmas where I had nothing to give except something homemade. Sounds cute and "movie of the week" precious perhaps? NOT HARDLY. I am embarassed that every where I turned for help even to Christian organizations, I was told no.

at least its over and I have to focus on getting heat help. LiHeap will help a little when I get thepapers filed, but there are more bills than LiHeap can help with.

I was praying for an angel of mercy with a gift of funds.... I guess the answer to my prayer was NO
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FRUSTRATED !!! This Christmas will be the worst EVER !!!

I am so very FRUSTRATED. I am still struggling to find a way to provide and its dead ends at every turn. Its not going to be a great Christmas for the kids this year at all.

I need work on my car done and cant afford it, no money for christmas gifts, and charities say I applied too late. I need real, tangible, practical help from someone who cares, not well wishers who dont put their sentiments into action.

HELP !!! Can anyone help in a real way???? PLEASE ?
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What a joke!

This site is a joke. No one helps. There are just a lot of people who need help here, and no one gives a flying fig in a practical sense. I have had it.
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theendofmyrope   in reply to theendofmyrope   on

I hate feeling ignored and worthless

 in response to Laura14...   Well its gone... everything. I lost everything in storage, I lost the ability to see my kids, I lost pretty much everything except the clothes on my back and a few personal items. So... I took advice and didnt give up.

Now what. No car (cant get to a job), no belongings, no family. I made it to the low point. I cant believe that there is no one who can help. waiting on foodstamps...

THIS SHOULD NOT BE CALLED "AIDPAGE"... It should be called "share your story, but dont expect anyone to help you - page"
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theendofmyrope   in reply to theendofmyrope   on

I hate feeling ignored and worthless

 in response to Laura14...   all I can say is that there is a point at which you no longer have it in you to keep going forward. when no one will help, when problems are overwhelming and insurmountable, and the burden too great.

I have hung in there all I can. without some immediate tangible help, i dont see the point of trying. I am not asking people to solve my problems, just help make them acheivable to begin the process. I hate that it has come down to money but ..... it has. Its sad too that I have had $0 help from anyone... civic groups, churches, individuals, anyone...

I am done. its too much
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theendofmyrope   in reply to theendofmyrope   on

I hate feeling ignored and worthless

 in response to Laura14...   i believe in God and I do search for jobs daily. I do in fact have a few leads but every interview I have been to has been fruitless. I am working with people for a job but a job will not solve my most immediate problems and even if I got a job I don't have a way there because of my vehicle situation.

Too many things are stacked against me. All I have is a small life insurance policy with no cash value. I am actually worth more dead than alive.
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I quit

I quit. I have tried and tried. I cannot even get a single person to reach out a tangible helping hand. The scammers that stand at the side fo the road and hold up a sign that says "will work for food" have received more help than I have.

I am outraged at our society and the system. I am frustrated that no one has lent a helping hand or even seems to care beyond a few light words of encouragement.

I cant take it anymore.  I quit.... everything. I hope everyone is better off without me dragging them down.

good bye

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Either I have value and am worth helping out.... or I am not.

Well, its over... October 1 will come and I will have nothing. I am already over my head. I have tried every agency known to man and charities too.

If I cant at least see something good happen by Oct 1, then I am done trying. After months and months of working hard with no good coming of it, I give up.

Encouraging words that try to inspire hope are very empty if nothing tangible ever happens. I am at my limit. I can not take any more empty "easy to say" encouraging words from people.

Either I have value and am worth helping out.... or I am not.

Apparently I have my answer.

Clearly everyone will be better off without me. Whats the point?
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It got worse, I am ready to call it quits

IT GOT WORSE..... I have had it. If I dont come up with $1000 by the end of the month, I lose everything.... literally. At that point, i am completely done trying and will have nothing else to lose....Its hard to move forward when it is overwhelming againt you.

i spent the day trying to call every church, government program, charity, ministry, community group, united way, etc...... I heard NO alot and some told me not to call back.

I am tired of this and am ready to call it quits
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theendofmyrope   in reply to theendofmyrope   on

BAD TO WORSE..... Can it get any worse?

 in response to Need_yeshua...   I am a follower of Christ. I pray, go to church, read the Bible, and worship. I read the promises of the Bible and wonder when its my turn,. I wait and I wait. How far down do I have to go, I have already lost everything, or just about.... now this with the car?

I cant take it any more. I hear alot about Gods goodness and his providing hand, but all i get is bad to worse... no real tangible help, I get to feeling like there is no point,. I cant go on with ALL negatives and no help.

I dont need encouragement that feels empty from people, what I need is a tangible move of God on someone's life for me. I have stepped out in faith many times and frankly, it gets old feeling like things dont get better...I have had it... for real
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BAD TO WORSE..... Can it get any worse?

Ok so as if my situation wasnt bad enough or dire enough, now I threw a rod in my car engine and have a hole in the engine now. So I have no car now either. I cant afford to get it fixed, so now what?

What I need desperately is $1000 just to repair this car. This is not a good thing. This is not what I need to be happening at this point. Can it get any worse????

If it does, I am completely through trying and cant take any more. Anything else and its over for me.

I am serious and have had it. I am no longer at the bottom of the barrell. I am under the barrell
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theendofmyrope   in reply to SysBot   on

What's on your heart and mind today?

 in response to Schmidty...   I appreciate your home page and links, that is the most tangible help I have received from anyone in a long time. I have had no luck yet in finding somthing I qualify for though.

NOW..... ugh! So now while driving my car I blew a hole in the side of the engine! Now I have no car and no money to get it fixed. I need a new engine and someone to put it in. Here we go,.... bad to worse,.
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theendofmyrope   in reply to SysBot   on

What's on your heart and mind today?

 in response to mariebenj1...   thank you for your reply and continual prayer for me and my family
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theendofmyrope   in reply to SysBot   on

What's on your heart and mind today?

 in response to mariebenj1...   Thanks for writing. Please understand. I am not saying in any way that I am the only one that has problems in this life. I know many other people are hurting and in need too. I respect that you have been through tough times yourself.

I have prayed and still do. I have believed and kept the faith. God answers prayers, right? thats what I believe, but when is it my turn? I am not asking for a million dollars or a brand new car... God knows my need, in know cause I tell him all the time. i do take things one day at a time and have been doing that for over a year. things have only gotten worse. i am not trying to fix myself. but i wonder if maybe I should be trying to fix myself. no one else is stepping up to help and I havent heard from God on this depsite constant asking and seeking and listening

i am tired of hoping for what seems like will never come. i am at the end of everything, ready to give it all up.
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theendofmyrope   in reply to theendofmyrope   on

I hate feeling ignored and worthless

 in response to Laura14...   thank you for your reply. I agree with you that families should fight to stay together no matter what. I have struggled with that and my anger towards my wife has been broken and I have let it go because that kind of anger only poisons the soul. my heart is also broken because of my children. I am unable to provide and if she ever took me to court for a divorce, she would get custody since I am "financially unstable." I have been trying to save our marriage for over a year now, and it looks bleak.

I apply all the time for jobs and I have not even been called to interview for minimum wage jobs. The problem is (and here is the bottom line), i feel beat up by this situation that most (i not all) of the fight in me is gone. The fight to keep looking, keep hoping, keep trying... I cant do this anymore. God knows my need, I tell Him all the time. I ask Him not just for help but for understanding and patience. Why cant He at least throw me a bone?

Without financial intervention, I cant continue. I need a good paying job but that wont even matter if i cant get out of the mess I am in. i have applied for assistance, food stamps, etc... but it takes a long time (so it seems) and thre doesnt seem to be many programs or people willing to help a down on his luck middle aged white male. If I was a woman, i would have help, if i was black or hispanic I would have help. If I was elderly I would have help.

I have nothing. and frankly i need more than words of encouragement. I need a miracle and God doesnt seem to be doing those... at least not for me.
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theendofmyrope   in reply to SysBot   on

What's on your heart and mind today?

 in response to morgan 316...   i have been praying, seeking help from God, going to church, asking for help, not living a bad life... Those are easy words to say, but try living my life. its not easy to look up when you are down. and discouragement comes quickly when bad stuff happens. He will make a way? when? i have waited a long time and been a broken man. Still nothing, and I mean literally nothing.

whats the point... of any of this?
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